greenie bean goodbye

fare you well, my honey, fare you well my only true one.

sunday morning as the boys gathered around the football game, I silently made my way through my craft show belongings for what is likely the last time.

greenie bean has been my baby, my most proud accomplishment, my life's driving force most days, but in this season, I'm settled. I'm ready to put down this business as I've known it, rest my bones, breathe life into new pursuits before releasing them from the palm of my hand into the world. 

I've grown tired, weary, needing to settle into the comfort of home, turn inward before I can turn outward again. 2011 has been a challenging year all around for me, but especially for my business. I turned to nannying for the flexibility and extra time it would give me to grow my business and in the first year it did just that. I saw success that I had dreamed of that far. But in this year, the flexibility held true, but extra time did not. Basically, J. stopped napping as much as she did and I don't have the time that I did. In this year, I also chose to spend my free time with friends, at class, in our home, and in the garden. Whereas I would spend most every evening sewing, I cooked instead.  I kept promising myself I'd get back to it, but around the time that Brad died, I lost the motivation and chose to heal rather than produce.

And so I'm here, at the beginning of a new year, on the verge of new pursuits, tucked away in our basement sorting through tote after tote of craft show belongings that hadn't been emptied in nearly half a decade. I put away rolls of tape, extension cords, ibuprofen. I hung the last of my farmers market totes, one by one, in seasoned order, empty hangers haunting remaining spaces.

so farewell for now, little greenie bean. we will meet again in a way that's best for both of us.

and for you faithful friends, the last handful of farmers market totes are sprinkled in my shop. use code FAREWELL for 50% off your purchase.